Done a little research -
Jehovahs witnesses dont celebrate Birthdays - A lot of Muslims dont and those that do are only supposed to up to a certain age - Many parts of Africa and asia dont celebrate or only do up to or after a certain age.
Cards look quite nice and I suppose they are okay, but it just seems such a waste of money and there is the environmental issues to consider also. Some people just chuck there cards in the bin after a couple of days but that just makes me feel bad because of the effort and expense people went to, so I end up keeping them all. I have a massive stack of Birthday and Christmas cards in my loft. (Yeah, i know, f*ckin' sad)
Same with presents i never ever get anything I would want or need and it just makes me feel annoyed at myself and quite bad for the people who bought them. If I want something I will go and buy it. I bought a dvd boxset on ebay (dirt cheap) of the complete series Of Blackadder with every single episode in it, the wife said "oooh have you bought that as a Birthday present to yourself"? I was like, "no I F*ckin' havent, why the f*ck would I do that, I bought it because Blackadders F*ckin' brilliant, Blackadder f*ckin rocks,
and it was cheap, thats why I bought it, nothing to do with a poxy birthday"! ( I got a Police Academy complete collection boxset dirt cheap an' all
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Its just the whole me, me, me, lets celebrate, I want to be spoilt, this is the anniversary of the day
I was born attitude that I dont get. You were spawned on this day, so f*ckin' what, whoop - de- f n'-doo!
(Christ, all this ranting, raving and moaning, Ive been watching too much Alf garnett on youtube I reckon)
I just dont like getting older and I dont see it as a cause for celebration, yes Im grateful to still be here, but for crying out loud it means Im edging closer and closer to the end and the whole thing just seems to go way too fast as it is without bloody making a big deal about it and wanting a fuss.
If I dont like it or want to celebrate it, why the f*ck to those around me feel they have to? Just dont buy me any presents or cards, shut the f*ck up about it, let it pass and dont do f*ck all and then I will be happy and you will have given me the best Birthday of all.
This years has been a particularly $h1t depressing one as it means I am now a year away from being B@st@rd 40, I am not amused, it is really bothering me and P1$$1ing me off, all I keep thinking is - Where has the time gone? What have I done with my life? Where is my life going? How long left? Am I now halfway there or do i have less? I feel like crap compared to 10 years ago and that means in another 10 years I will feel much worse! The last 39 years have gone really fast, christ if whatever I have left goes that fast whats the F*ckin' point?
(If you werent depressed before you probably are now folks!)
Oh well only another 363 days to go until the big 4 0!
